Life

Hello Dear Readers, LIFE, what can one say, it can keep one on its toes, it can be as a roller coaster ride, it can be as a high, daring dive, it can have one on a mountain one day and way down in the valley the next and what ever lies in between the mountains and valleys it can seem an eternity of dread, BUT, GOD, is always present, IF we chose to know his presence no matter what is befalling us.  And I use the term 'be falling' in the sense that our lives may be doing just that at the time, falling utterly apart.

A few days after Christmas, one of our special needs children had an emergency requiring going to the ER and then to the hospital in Nashville for a month long stay. We are back home now, she is much improved, yet looking at a surgery sometime this year. But her daily care has increased, and we are not complaining, just stating how things change. But in that month away from home, I being at the hospital, and husband here, life, at both places for us, was as I described in the first paragraph. I had much time to read, pray and deeply commune with God on many things, for not only did we have this daughter in the hospital, but home life on the farm was in utter turmoil.

It is times as such, that we need to deeply look unto God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit for there is no other, simple as that, there is no other. Trust, trust, and trust more, that THEY are in unity, working for our good always, no matter what our physical eyes, ears, heart, emotions experience. It truly is a war of the flesh against the spirit, if we honestly walk daily with the 3 in ONE.

Being home now  a few weeks, there is no catching up on things, just work each day to get the rhythm back of our routine.

Spring is soon, daffodil spears are pushing their way up, even most days the sun is not shining, it is gray and cloudy, but the sun is shining somewhere, and if we chose to walk in the spirit on these somewhat gloomy days, the SON is shining in our souls, and as David often said in the Psalms, 'why so down cast Oh my soul, hope thou in God.'   Amen.

There were days I was very down cast, my heart never seemed to be so heavy, I can't remember feeling a burden so overwhelming, and I seemed not to be able to release all to Christ to allow him to carry my burden, as he says he will. Many days was a great struggle, but I made myself, read, pray, sharing, honestly, all that was in my heart and soul, for He knows before we even speak of it, but wants us to share anyway. As I did, it became a bit more less each week, as God led me to scripture to read and as he spoke to me of things. Some was not what my flesh wanted to hear, but he is always so gentle, kind but to the point. I am truly grateful and I desire to be obedient to Him.  Issues have not changed, they may seem worse to my natural mind, but I am trusting God, I am wanting to obey what he tells me and things of these issues may not change in theirselves, but things in me are.

I am glad, so very glad, to be home. The hospital stay is another blog post coming soon. God is real, he is a very present help in time of trouble, yet in spirit, his ways are not our ways, nor his thoughts ours, they are much higher and he works all things out for our good, to them that LOVE HIM and are called according to his purpose.

IN JOY